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Haru Okumura ⬤ Persona 5
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[piercedyourheart]

[ it takes a second for haru's question to register through the fog of despair and once it does, she looks up at her fidgeting friend. there was everything to talk about.

and there was nothing at all but one simple truth. ]

I think I screwed up, Haru-chan. [ her shoulders shake, but there's no tears. ] No, I know screwed up. Really bad, too.

[gracile]

[She kneels on the floor in front of the other girl

She gently rests a hand on Yukari's leg right above the knee, watching out for how she reacts.] What happened?

[She wants to say "no, you didn't," but she doesn't know. She can only ask Yukari to say what she's comfortable with.]

[piercedyourheart]

[ yukari doesn't move when haru touches her, barely looks in her direction. she looks straight at haru, but her eyes are distant. ]

Aigis came back and she knows now. She knows how selfish I was. I hurt both her and Minako. I couldn't stay. Not when they should be happy.

[ she can't even begin to provide the lengthy amount of context needed for those statements to make sense. there's so much to explain: those months after minako's death, the abyss of time, the Seal. right now, her mind is only focused on how she's selfish and empty and not worthy of love and-- ]

[gracile]

[Aigis isn't a name that Haru's heard before, but she knows Minako, Yukari's girlfriend.

There's clearly a lot going on here that she doesn't know about.] I don't know who Aigis is. [She says, gently, in case Yukari wants to tell her.]

And I don't know what you did that makes you think you were selfish. But you're allowed to be selfish sometimes.

[She tries to gently rub Yukari's skin right above the knee, a little massaging gesture that she hopes is soothing.]

[piercedyourheart]

[ haru's gesture is having the intended effect, helping ground yukari enough to let her push past some of the despair clouding her mind. ]

Aigis was a part of S.E.E.S. with us. She's one my best friends and she was Minako's girlfriend before...everything. [ the emphasis on 'everything' promises a proper explanation much, much later. ] Then we got here and I couldn't stop myself from being with Minako. I just chased after her without thinking. Now, Aigis is here and....

I messed up, Haru-chan. Everything's messed up.

[gracile]

[Haru initially thinks that "everything" means "getting here," only for Yukari to say that afterwards, and then she doesn't understand anything at all.

She continues that gentle, slow rub.] Did either of them say that they were upset with you?

You didn't know Aigis would come here. It's not wrong for you to have acted on what both you and Minako wanted.

[piercedyourheart]

They didn't, but--

[ yukari stops mid-sentence and pauses to take several slow, deep breaths in an attempt to slow down her racing thoughts. nothing she's saying is making sense, she knows that. distilling two years and a few months of grief and longing into something coherent is a borderline impossible task, made even more difficult by her currently haywire emotions. she hates that she's leaning on someone who doesn't deserve to get bogged down with her baggage, hates even more that coming here proves she wasn't strong enough to get by on her own.

but hadn't the entirety of s.e.e.s's journey taught her that being there for one another was okay? this was okay. she was okay.

yukari takes another shaky breath and sighs, ]

Sure, it wasn't wrong, but I knew better. Or I was supposed to know better. It was so easy to get swept up in it, you know? Even if I knew it was a bad idea.

[gracile]

Yukari...

[She's quiet for a moment.] I don't really know what's happened between the three of you, and it's clear that there's quite a lot of history there that I probably couldn't understand right away.

You can stay here as long as you want. But when you're ready, I think you should talk with them, instead of assuming how they feel.

[piercedyourheart]

[ haru isn't one to beat around the bush with her opinions which she appreciates, even when she's feeling at her lowest. yukari knows she can't run away forever. she'll have to face both of them sooner rather than later and painfully, reluctantly talk about the swirling mass of emotions in her.

just. not yet.

she winces, but nods in agreement, sighing ]

There's...a lot and I promise I'll explain when I'm not--this. [ her lips quirk upward in the hint of a smile although the gesture doesn't reach her eyes. ] But thank you. Really. I won't be much of a bother.

[gracile]

Of course. You don't have to talk about it now-- or ever, if you don't want to. [She does, of course, want to think Yukari can trust her, but some things are hard to talk about.

She squeezes Yukari's legs right above the knee.] And you aren't a bother. You never are, I promise.

But please, if there's anything I can do for you now, do let me know, all right?

[With that, she stands.] Would you like to put your things in the bedroom?