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[gracile]

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Haru Okumura ⬤ Persona 5
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moonblessing ⬤ IRIS

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[piercedyourheart]

im happy with whatever haru chan
i dont want to inconvenience you
and yeah everythings fine



no its not
everything is kinda terrible

[gracile]

Oh no I'm sorry
Yes, you can come over any time you want, it's not an inconvenience I promise.
I'll be here all night so just come by whenever you're in the neighborhood.

[piercedyourheart]

dont be sorry
im the one who did it
ill be there soon

[ it's another hour or so until yukari arrives and when she does, she looks like a right mess. she hasn't been crying, that's obvious from her impeccable makeup, but her eyes are red as if she's on the verge of it. she starts when the door opens then slinks into herself, hoisting her small bag higher on her shoulder. ]

Hey, Haru-chan. [ her voice is quiet and hoarse. ] Thanks for letting me stay.

[gracile]

[That doesn't mean I can't be sorry.

Is what she wants to send, but doesn't. Still, she's waiting at her apartment, anxiously paying attention to the door, so much so that when there's a knock--

--Haru dashes there within seconds, opening it in a hurry.

Yukari looks like she's about to cry, and it breaks Haru's heart. She steps back, holding the door open.] Please, Yukari-chan, it's no imposition at all.

Come in. I've made some tea.

[She wants to ask, but doesn't want to pry.]

[piercedyourheart]

[ yukari nods her thanks, stepping inside to slip her shoes off at the door. were she in a happier mood, she'd probably joke about the last time she was invited in for tea at haru's apartment.

now, there's none of her usual energy when she enters the apartment, drops her bag beside the couch, and takes a seat without a word. the light inside her has flickered out. she's here in body, but there isn't anyone at home. ]

You didn't have to do that. [ a pause. there's more she should say, isn't there...? ] But thank you.

[gracile]

[Seeing Yukari like this, so quiet and lifeless, is more than just worrisome, it's alarming. It's heartbreaking.] I wanted to do that.

One moment, I'll be right-- [she doesn't even finish the sentence, scurrying into the kitchen and then back with a mug of steaming tea, which she sets in front of Yukari. And stands there, fidgeting.] If you'd like, you can put your things in the bedroom. I don't mind sleeping on the couch, it's actually quite comfortable-- I've fallen asleep out here a few times--

[She trails off. She's babbling, nervously, just to fill the air.

Haru takes a breath.] ...do you want to talk about it?

[piercedyourheart]

[ it takes a second for haru's question to register through the fog of despair and once it does, she looks up at her fidgeting friend. there was everything to talk about.

and there was nothing at all but one simple truth. ]

I think I screwed up, Haru-chan. [ her shoulders shake, but there's no tears. ] No, I know screwed up. Really bad, too.

[gracile]

[She kneels on the floor in front of the other girl

She gently rests a hand on Yukari's leg right above the knee, watching out for how she reacts.] What happened?

[She wants to say "no, you didn't," but she doesn't know. She can only ask Yukari to say what she's comfortable with.]

[piercedyourheart]

[ yukari doesn't move when haru touches her, barely looks in her direction. she looks straight at haru, but her eyes are distant. ]

Aigis came back and she knows now. She knows how selfish I was. I hurt both her and Minako. I couldn't stay. Not when they should be happy.

[ she can't even begin to provide the lengthy amount of context needed for those statements to make sense. there's so much to explain: those months after minako's death, the abyss of time, the Seal. right now, her mind is only focused on how she's selfish and empty and not worthy of love and-- ]

[gracile]

[Aigis isn't a name that Haru's heard before, but she knows Minako, Yukari's girlfriend.

There's clearly a lot going on here that she doesn't know about.] I don't know who Aigis is. [She says, gently, in case Yukari wants to tell her.]

And I don't know what you did that makes you think you were selfish. But you're allowed to be selfish sometimes.

[She tries to gently rub Yukari's skin right above the knee, a little massaging gesture that she hopes is soothing.]

[piercedyourheart]

[ haru's gesture is having the intended effect, helping ground yukari enough to let her push past some of the despair clouding her mind. ]

Aigis was a part of S.E.E.S. with us. She's one my best friends and she was Minako's girlfriend before...everything. [ the emphasis on 'everything' promises a proper explanation much, much later. ] Then we got here and I couldn't stop myself from being with Minako. I just chased after her without thinking. Now, Aigis is here and....

I messed up, Haru-chan. Everything's messed up.

[gracile]

[Haru initially thinks that "everything" means "getting here," only for Yukari to say that afterwards, and then she doesn't understand anything at all.

She continues that gentle, slow rub.] Did either of them say that they were upset with you?

You didn't know Aigis would come here. It's not wrong for you to have acted on what both you and Minako wanted.

[piercedyourheart]

They didn't, but--

[ yukari stops mid-sentence and pauses to take several slow, deep breaths in an attempt to slow down her racing thoughts. nothing she's saying is making sense, she knows that. distilling two years and a few months of grief and longing into something coherent is a borderline impossible task, made even more difficult by her currently haywire emotions. she hates that she's leaning on someone who doesn't deserve to get bogged down with her baggage, hates even more that coming here proves she wasn't strong enough to get by on her own.

but hadn't the entirety of s.e.e.s's journey taught her that being there for one another was okay? this was okay. she was okay.

yukari takes another shaky breath and sighs, ]

Sure, it wasn't wrong, but I knew better. Or I was supposed to know better. It was so easy to get swept up in it, you know? Even if I knew it was a bad idea.

[gracile]

Yukari...

[She's quiet for a moment.] I don't really know what's happened between the three of you, and it's clear that there's quite a lot of history there that I probably couldn't understand right away.

You can stay here as long as you want. But when you're ready, I think you should talk with them, instead of assuming how they feel.

[piercedyourheart]

[ haru isn't one to beat around the bush with her opinions which she appreciates, even when she's feeling at her lowest. yukari knows she can't run away forever. she'll have to face both of them sooner rather than later and painfully, reluctantly talk about the swirling mass of emotions in her.

just. not yet.

she winces, but nods in agreement, sighing ]

There's...a lot and I promise I'll explain when I'm not--this. [ her lips quirk upward in the hint of a smile although the gesture doesn't reach her eyes. ] But thank you. Really. I won't be much of a bother.

[gracile]

Of course. You don't have to talk about it now-- or ever, if you don't want to. [She does, of course, want to think Yukari can trust her, but some things are hard to talk about.

She squeezes Yukari's legs right above the knee.] And you aren't a bother. You never are, I promise.

But please, if there's anything I can do for you now, do let me know, all right?

[With that, she stands.] Would you like to put your things in the bedroom?